differences must be / reconciled, not only / reconcilable

[roc_on]

Beila goes home. Chali's not going to be home until late. She gives Ranyi an abbreviated version of the official story. She writes. She goes to bed.

In the morning she sends Dao a message:

Are you mad at me?

Comments

[roc_on]

For whatever it's worth, I don't think it's your fault.

[thinklikethis]

How is it not?

[roc_on]

Us running into somebody who'd mistake Jun for Sora was a freak coincidence you couldn't have reasonably predicted, especially because I don't think you even knew they were related. I'm pretty sure I could have caught him if he'd run. And there's at least three ways to split responsibility for the fact that I wasn't convinced enough.

[thinklikethis]

Well, I guess I don't completely agree with you.

[roc_on]

You don't have to, of course.

[thinklikethis]

Yeah.

[roc_on]

I am sorry it lined up the way it did.

[thinklikethis]

I don't know which is worse, the part where he'd be alive if you'd trusted me more, or the part where he'd be alive if I'd trusted you less.

Two seconds later: I already regret saying that I'm sorry

[roc_on]

It's okay.

[thinklikethis]

Okay

[roc_on]

They can maybe have an actual conversation about how much they want to and feel like they can trust each other when Dao is not so immediately miserable.

I love you.

[thinklikethis]

I love you too.