one death: tragedy / a million a statistic / incommensurate

[roc_on]

Beila gives Dao space. He is extremely right that she's not the best person to be sad about his dead serial killer friend with and that seems to be his principal occupation, so - space.

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[roc_on]

"I mean, I don't want to phrase it as an ultimatum like that, that would be awful, I'm just - wondering if - this is it, this is the level of romantic intimacy the two of us are capable of."

[thinklikethis]

"I have no idea."

[roc_on]

"Me either." Headshake. "I don't want to break up, I really really don't..."

[thinklikethis]

"I don't either. So... let's not do that, I guess?"

[roc_on]

"I'm trying to figure out if I don't want to break up like I don't want to go to the dentist or like I don't want to set my house on fire."

[thinklikethis]

"Oh."

[roc_on]

"...I can think about that not at you, if you prefer."

[thinklikethis]

"I don't know," he sighs.

[roc_on]

Smoothie. Slurp.

[thinklikethis]

"I guess it depends if you think I'll have anything useful to contribute."

[roc_on]

"I'm not sure. Do you think you might...?"

[thinklikethis]

"Kinda hard to tell without trying it."

[roc_on]

"Suppose." Shrug. "Where do you see us going? Where does this end up?"

[thinklikethis]

"I... don't really know?"

[roc_on]

"Where do you want it to end up, then?"

[thinklikethis]

"I don't really know that either. I don't have, like, a big plan for how my life is supposed to go. I don't know where I want to be in ten years, besides out of my dad's house and, like, alive and not a serial killer."

[roc_on]

"Okay, side question, how actually difficult is not being a serial killer for you."

[thinklikethis]

He sighs.

"Not actually that hard. Like... the thing that goes wrong when I think the wrong way about it isn't that I start turning into a serial killer, it's that I start feeling really scared that I might, and those are really different things."

[roc_on]

"Okay, good."

[thinklikethis]

"Yeah."

[roc_on]

"So like... there's kind of not enough there there for me to even say 'we're not compatible', it's not like you want to move to Ember Island or devote your life to protesting various monarchies or something I couldn't be attached to like that, but that's... kind of not helping? Not incompatible but not present enough to be compatible in a more active sense."

[thinklikethis]

"...What do you mean, 'not present'?"

[roc_on]

"Your plans are all about places you don't want to be. There's not enough substance for me to think about in terms of the question I'm trying to get at."

[thinklikethis]

"What actually is the question, though?"

[roc_on]

"Whether I want to stay together that being the logical consequence of not breaking up."