the avatar state / implies emotional pain / or perfect control

[roc_on]

Jun did a show last night, so maybe he's holding it together well enough to do a lesson today. It'd sure help take Beila's mind off things; maybe it'd do the same for him. She can always fly away again if he's not feeling it.

Knock knock?

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[roc_on]

"We are not talking, amateurs with what are objectively personal stakes in the matter and brief exposure to the subject think he's fine, level of psychological analysis quality," says Beila.

[fiery_delights]

"I came prepared to kill him if I had to, I'm not going to give him a pass just because he's family," says Jun. "But I do have personal knowledge that the kind of problems he might plausibly have can be very much solvable, and it can be as sudden and simple as finding out one thing you can do that just works perfectly. If you won't take my word for it and you won't take Dao's, though, what will you take?"

[roc_on]

"There might not be anything. I mean, there probably shouldn't be a way to convince people not to arrest serial killers at the last minute by saying the right thing."

[fiery_delights]

"I don't think I agree," says Jun. "I have no great faith in justice, theoretically or practically. The important part seems to be preventing people from getting hurt, and if there's a way to do that without anybody getting arrested, so much the better."

[roc_on]

"The point is to prevent people from getting hurt. And sticking to policies that tend to reduce people getting hurt, even if there are emotionally charged arguments under time pressure saying to break them just this once - is in aggregate a pretty good way of doing that."

[fiery_delights]

"I can see the logic, but that's not how I operate. Rules, on the whole, have not been good to me."

[roc_on]

"We probably don't have the time to come to total philosophical agreement on that even if it's in the cards."

[fiery_delights]

"Then I think you need to make a decision about whether or not they could possibly convince you," says Jun. "—Hmm, but before you do, here's a thought. As an alternative to 'we were mistaken about the bone-stealing serial killer', how's 'we found the bone-stealing serial killer, and he kidnapped me and ran for it'? Meaning in reality that I go with him to personally verify that he's not murdering anybody. It'll leave you down one firebending teacher, but nobody gets arrested and there's less... policy trouble."

[roc_on]

"Do you think you can succeed at that job if it turns out to actually be a job and not a... non-job?"

[fiery_delights]

"Yeah. I mean, I'd pretty much be betting my life on that, so, yes."

[roc_on]

Beila looks at Dao. And Spider. "Lying to Chali about how things went down and having to find a new firebending teacher is a lower standard of evidence than letting the serial killer go totally unescorted. But it's still a standard. What else is there to say about this... situation?"

[in_silk]

Lots of shivering. There is that to say.

[thinklikethis]

Hugs.

[fiery_delights]

"Look, little brother - do you hate your name as much as I do, by the way?"

[in_silk]

This question actually gets him to uncurl a little, although he looks at the floor rather than at any humans present.

"I don't... hate it," he murmurs. "I. You can use it if you want."

[fiery_delights]

"If you say so. Okay. It seems like your one remaining chance at not having to fight this out or get arrested is to tell us what happened and see what Beila thinks of it. So. Are you going to do that, or not?"

[in_silk]

He uncurls a little more.

"I don't want to fight," he says. "Or get arrested."

[fiery_delights]

"Okay. What do you want to do? What brilliant idea did Dao have that works for you?"

[in_silk]

Hesitating. Hesitating. Deep breaths.

"I want to be a healer," he tells the floor softly.

[roc_on]

"Wait. What."

[in_silk]

"I'm a waterbender. I - my father was always disappointed about it - he taught me firebending even though I can't do it - wouldn't let me learn how to heal. So when. I thought. If everyone thought I was a different kind of bender, it would be easier to hide. So I figured out how to fake firebending. And. When I told Dao why I was - doing all this, for real, that it was because it's the only time I ever feel okay... he said, why don't you try healing and see if that makes you feel okay too. And it. Did."

[roc_on]

[fiery_delights]

"...I hate to ask this because of what the answer might do to Beila's faith in my ability to keep you in line, but: how exactly did you fake Dad's suicide, Sora?"

[in_silk]

"Bloodbending."

[roc_on]

"I looked up the - your dad died in broad daylight. During a half moon, which they note on police reports as a matter of policy."